Muse-ing's

 Has anyone ever told you to relax?  I have heard it said to me and others, i've even said it to other people and myself.   How do you relax if you're worried, scared, or nervous?  How do you tell others to relax when you have a hard time of it yourself?  I for one find it impossible to relax when i'm worried or anxious.  I know babies have a hard time trying to relax, because when theyre upset, they have no idea what is going on.  Am I saying i'm a baby or I act like one? NO!         Well, .. maybe I have adolescent tendencies and you could say i'm acting like a baby.  I could say i'm being childish when I lash out verbally to my significant other or to my children.  Idon't want to do these things, but Ifail sometimes on trying to remain calm or be relaxed.  Let's take a look at -- Relax.      Relaxing happens in 2 ways or forms.  You choose to relax and you find peace.  Whether tha...

 I missed blogging last week.  I was feeling very vulnerable over the past two weeks.  I could only bring myself to write in my journal.  I couldn't put all my deep & personal thoughts in a blog.  I didn't want to frighten the world away.  I was having negative feelings towards myself as a woman, a parent, spouse, friend, and so on, and so on.   Eventually, I came down from those bad feelings and have come up feeling slightly motivated & on my way to feeling determined until I looked at my calendar for October.  Does that ever happen to you?  You're fine, until you turn the page.  It's like, "why do I do this to myself every month?"  Then I remind myself that I chose this--I wanted to have a family and work, and enjoy life & do the things that make me happy.  What I didn't account for was self care & personal time.  That is where I went wrong.  I was also judging myself harshly for the past. ...