Muse-ing's

Sometimes you have to liven up the atmosphere--my thoughts exactly!  So, I added some new color to the mix & "New" bold font.  Is it too much?  Will it keep the readers engaged?  Will it prompt a comment of good or bad, yea or nay?  Let's watch and see. Self validation, or in other words, Validating Yourself.  That's what is on my mind today, and the last few days really.  It's something my therapist brings up a lot because she knows I struggle with this very thing.  Perhaps it's the personality type that I have or my own character flaws, i'm not sure but I do know it is something that I need to work on.  But what is it...exactly?  How do I recognize it or how do I self validate?  What does that look like in a practical sense?  When i'm self-validating I don't want it to sound like i'm always reading from a script or my personal journal pages, (or my blog--haha).             Let me ex...

The mind is a terrile thing to waste--that is so true & more evident to me as I get older. However, it is never the mind that drives me, it's the most important thing, or the tedious task that keeps me motivated.  The other emotions & thoughts exist, and I pick them up as I use them.  My intention is first on random & then business.  The pleasure points, seem to come in 3rd or 4th place.   I've heard it said that there can be more than 1 person 'driving the car'.  For example, your part of the brain that pays attention is driving, while your busy mind is focused on tasks, and your random mind is focused on all the mindless things that cross it's path.  The deliberate part of your mind is the all businesss no pleasure side.  Lastly, there is the carefree part of your mind where all the fluff exists-fun, romance, laughter, & pleasure. Why can't we all engage all parts of the brain each day?  What gets in the way?  Who is dr...

 That's how my mind feels sometimes.  I begin with my negative self talk over not getting this up yesterday and then I think I'm a big fat failure because I didn't.  I go down a road of complete and utter disgust towards myself and then it hits me.  STOP! Just stop doing that.  The devil wants to beat you down and you're letting it happen.  Just STOP!  Once I come back to my calmer self, I realize, it's not that bad.  I'm still walking, i'm still sticking to tasks, i'm still taking care of my family & responsibilities.  I have a lot of Wins to be proud of today and yesterday. I am grateful for moments like these because I recognize them & it pushes me & motivates me to move past them and keep going.  I may never silence those inner demons & haters are still going to hate.  As long as, I hold true to myself, my purpose, and my goals--then i'm living right.  Aren't I?  There goes doubt, my evil twin.  Sh...

 How do you handle change?  Personally, I don't.  The hardest thing i've ever had to do is adapt to the changes around me-whether that was moving from Arizona to Virginia and then Virginia to Maryland, or accepting that friends or significant others were no longer a part of my life, or motherhood, or job changes, etc.  I could go on & on, but I won't.  The point is ANYTIME i'm faced with a change that was made without my consent, (and i'm not being a brat, I'm just making a point), i've been left with this feeling of anguish, regret, & loneliness.  This is me being vulnerable.  I know it's hard to believe a blog this new & on the 3rd post would be deep but this is all about honesty & transparency.   @#$%  GLITCH  ^&*()+  (I'M SORRY BUT MY TABLET POWERED DOWN.  THIS POST CONTINUES ON TO TUESDAY)  As I was saying, change is hard.  Especially, when you were not expecting it or didn't plan it....